Yesterday, I was in shock and cried all throughout the day.
I cried in my chiropractor’s office, cried at the gym, cried on the way home, cried in the shower, cried as I vacuumed my living room, cried while I drove to the grocery store for sourdough bread and cheese, cried while I texted my friends and my daughter, cried when I painted blue hearts on a page, and cried myself to sleep.
But today. Today, I’m pissed. I took my pups in to get groomed and walked into a nearby coffee shop to wait (actually here now as I write this) and I feel like Wonder Woman. Let me explain.
My energy is this. I dare someone to get in my way. I dare anyone to try to pull any patriarchal, racist, homophobic, bigoted, or demeaning bullshit in my presence. I fucking dare them. And that will be me for the next however many years it will take to turn this ship around.
What I can’t get over is voting for a morally corrupt person. And it’s not like it’s subtle. It’s loud and constantly shoved in our faces. There is nothing, not one thing this person has ever done for the good of humanity. EVER.
This has changed me. I feel more determined than ever to use my voice to change the world we live in. I see every day as a chance to challenge the bullshit.
I live in a blue county but a red state. Believe me, I see plenty of bullshit. But there’s also so much good happening and I’m determined to be a part of it.
In the coffee shop I’m at right now, I just witnessed a news channel share a story about a customer who had lost $2500 of cash. She’s a midwife and had met with a friend here before heading to the bank to make the deposit She called back and they couldn’t find the money anywhere.
But later that night after they closed, the barista was cleaning and found the envelope of cash, called the woman and returned it to her in full.
The woman wanted to repay her so she shared the story on Facebook after finding out the barista was headed to Rwanda soon on a mission trip to help those in poverty. They raised enough money to give her a cash card as a reward for her good deed.
Tears flowed as we all witnessed good people being good to others.
This is the world I see in front of me and this is what I will continue to seek each day.
I hope you feel empowered right now rather than hopeless.
I hope you feel energized by the work ahead rather than mentally drained.
I hope you feel courageous in the presence of tyrannical, racist, homophobic, patriarchal, or any other oppressive bullshit.
I hope you feel all the good inside of you and let others see it, too.
The good in us will be the good the world will become when we let it seep into others.
So today, rather than be sad, let’s continue to do, say, and be the good in the world.
Let’s continue to be big-hearted, be loud about it, but take no shit.
Love you all.
Thank you for writing and sharing this. I truly relate and love your courage to speak your truth. 💙💙💙
Crying is healing! Connection is what pulls us through the grief. That, and organizing, protesting and being our badass selves.